It’s fall, the leaves are now on the ground and although it feels like I haven’t done much in the past months, I do have some new work to show you. Fall is an exhausting time for me, so I find it hard to get motivated to create when I am just so darn tired all the time. We did have some early snow (in September!) where I live and while I hoped we would get more typical fall weather for a while, I am ready for the white stuff again. Once the mould is buried life gets a lot better for me. One of my symptoms of overactive mast cells is an unexplained uptick in anxiety. I hate those moments when I feel it rising up through my body and I have no reasonable explanation for why its happening. There is no discernible trigger, just a sudden feeling of things not being right, followed by a wave that colours the world with dark shadows, sounds that no longer seem familiar and somehow tinged with a sinister edge. Thankfully those moments do not linger for more than a day and I know how to get back on track. They are a reminder to me that I always need to be diligent in managing my chronic illness. You can’t take a break, as much as you’d like to sometimes. I think it’s the same with creating. It’s important to keep at it, even if it feels like whatever you’re doing is no good, because in the next moment it could transform into something amazing.
Image: ©Deann Stein Hasinoff Safe? 2018